Keeping it Dark

Am I in a dark place?  I have to wonder because some of what I’ve read lately has had some seriously dark/taboo undertones.  In some cases, they aren’t undertones at all, but rather neon flashing lights.

Veiled Innocence – a fathers shocking hatred of his daughter
Pleasure – a husband who beats his wife
Bang – I can’t even go there it’s just so depressing
The Girl in 6E – oh the gruesomeness!! Though an inexplicably fun read!

Did I spoil myself with the light and fluffy romance novels?  I was going to read the In the Company of Killers series next, but I don’t know if I can go there.  Do I want more darkness?  When will I start seeing the light again?   Maybe this is what I need though?  A little time away from the millionaires, billionaires, CEOs, the playboys and perfect, oh so perfect men.   The gushy lovey story with the will they, well of course they will, predictability.  Am I sure that I want to give that up for a while longer?  Can I?

I think that I can.  In fact, I will just a little bit more.  There’s something nice about having a change.  As long as the change is in the Erotic wheel house… I won’t be straying to far from that in the least.  Well, not on purpose.   So here we go again… what’s in store for Sarai?!

Killing Sarai (In the Company of Killers) [kindle edition – $2.99]


Sarai was only fourteen when her mother uprooted her to live in Mexico with a notorious drug lord. Over time she forgot what it was like to live a normal life, but she never let go of her hope to escape the compound where she has been held for the past nine years.

Victor is a cold-blooded assassin who, like Sarai, has known only death and violence since he was a young boy. When Victor arrives at the compound to collect details and payment for a hit, Sarai sees him as her only opportunity for escape. But things don’t go as planned and instead of finding transport back to Tucson, she finds herself free from one dangerous man and caught in the clutches of another.

While on the run, Victor strays from his primal nature as he succumbs to his conscience and resolves to help Sarai. As they grow closer, he finds himself willing to risk everything to keep her alive; even his relationship with his devoted brother and liaison, Niklas, who now like everyone else wants Sarai dead.

As Victor and Sarai slowly build a trust, the differences between them seem to lessen, and an unlikely attraction intensifies. But Victor’s brutal skills and experience may not be enough in the end to save her, as the power she unknowingly holds over him may ultimately be what gets her killed.

This is their story…

Maybe after all of that, once I’ve gotten my fill, I’ll rummage my way through some friendly smut.  Well, maybe not too friendly.

**SPOILERS** Bang – e.k. Blair [Book Review – 2.5*]

Bang (Black Lotus #1) (The Black Lotus Series) – Amazon Kindle – $2.99

They say when you take revenge against another you lose a part of your innocence.
But I’m not innocent.
I haven’t been for a very long time.
My innocence was stolen from me. Taken was the life I was supposed to have. The soul I was born with. The ruby heart embedded in a life full of hopes and dreams.

Gone.
Vanished.

I never even had a choice.
I mourn that life. Mourn the what-ifs.
Until now.
I’m ready to take back what was always meant to be mine.

But every plan has a fatal flaw. Sometimes it’s the heart.

**Due to the dark and explicit nature of this book, it is recommended for mature audiences only.*

What the fuck!? This shit was dark. Actually that’s an understatement, it’s not just dark, it’s like a black hole of despair.

*SPOILERS*

I don’t think that I could write about this story without divulging major storyline elements. I feel like it would be simply impossible of me.  So I’m giving you a warning.  There are spoilers in my review.

Where shall I start? How about with the fact that I have never read an E.K Blair book before. I now don’t know if I will be able to again. Let me clarify though, this author, can write. Really well in fact. She certainly has a way of piecing a story together and while I still don’t know if I liked this or not, I can’t deny that it’s overall a really a devastatingly engaging story.

A little girl is ripped from her home, placed into the foster care system and has one of the most horrifying acts thrown against creating a severely broken and vengeful woman. She grows up with Pike, a brother (of sorts). Ends up marrying a man, Bennett, she doesn’t even love and begins an illicit affair with another Declan, all for the purposes of revenge.

So let’s see, I feel like I have to tell you that there is some serious and I mean really horrible acts of child abuse in this story. It was hard to read and honestly I was ready to put the book down because it was too much for me, but decided to just gloss over it quickly. I did that to understand the relationship more so between Pike and Elizabeth. In the grand scheme of things, I probably should have just put this story down and let it go. Looking back other than to implant some shock value, I don’t think it was necessary at all to go into that much detail. It was disgusting, it was sad, it was painful.

…and it didn’t get any better as the story continued into her present.  She actively brings a unknowing victim into her web of deceit and lies with the intent of her having her kill her husband.  The reason, well I won’t spoil that, was a little weak in my opinion.  The man though Declan McKinnon in a different type of story would have been the perfect type of Dom character.  He exudes control and power in his sexuality.  He had such presence each time he interacted with Nina and while I wasn’t completely invested in their relationship, I was invested in him and it was mainly because of things like this

“Now go back to your husband, but don’t you forget whose cum is inside of you right now,”

That’s were it all ended for me though.  With Declan.  I didn’t care enough about Nina, I was trying to.  I wanted to hate her husband as much as she did.  I wanted to cheerlead her cause, but she ultimately comes off as crazy.  Not the good, she shall over come, crazy either.  Just a bat shit lunatic, with a “brother” goading her whenever he’s allowed to.  It’s just depressing.  All of it.  Imagine if you will those made for TV, based on true events Hallmark movies.  It’s all just tragedy.  There are no winners here.  There’s no riding off into the sunset.

If you are interested in reading.  It does have quite a few good sex scenes.  There are elements of BDSM, but I don’t think that it’s really put to good use in this story at all.  I’m not sure it was being used as tool to help Nina/Elizabeth understand herself better or what.  If that was the intent, it was clearly lost on me.  There are so many elements to the life style that can help people feel a sense of liberation.  This story doesn’t do the lifestyle any justice.  Instead, it’s used as a poor mans therapy.   I think it would have been such a better story, if the focus was on Declan using BDSM to help free her from her past.  That would have been a far more engaging story.

There’s more to come from this series and I don’t know if I could do it.   I don’t understand after reading that ending, what there is left to tell.   There’s not even a little synopsis available to tell me what could possibly be coming next.